Sad Saddness...

I haven't posted since March/April for anyone who knows me, obvious reasons. For peeps looking out for my recovery, it went good. But for those just getting in the loop, i lost the love of my life about a month & half after surgery. April 10, 2012 to be exact. Recovery of surgery went very well. But obviously life spiraled down afterward. April was the worst month of my life. Greg, My Love, My Life, My Everything was taken from me. His birthday was 6 day after his death, which is a punch in the face after the punch in the gut. It seems like life just gets sadder & sadder. I feel like I'm just here, but you're just seeing a phantom of me. My Dr. says I'm gonna have surgery on my right hip within the year; we decided we will wait till it breaks. i cant deal with this shit any more. Its funny when people try to tell me about about their problems/shit... & all I'm thinking is... you have no idea...